The Art of Letting Go

I've been down and out the past few days due to an illness and it's been a struggle to do anything outside the house. But being in the house on the "sick and shut in list" isn't anything abnormal for me because when I get sick...I get sick. My body has a way of shutting down and not allowing me to be as active as I would like to be. Better yet, God has a way of shutting me down and not allowing me to be as active as I would like to be. After 37 years of being on this earth, I still have yet to learn when to LET GO and LET GOD!!!

I have a small confession: I'm a perfectionist and I like to do everything myself. Ok well maybe that's two confessions. But that's neither here nor there. Being a perfectionist and a woman of my word, I like to handle everything myself. I very rarely ask for help. In fact, how did Jay-Z put it..."I'll tighten my belt before I beg for help." (Justify my Thug, The Black Album, 2004). Now that can be seen as a good thing or a bad thing. On one hand I like to handle things on my own, and refused to be labeled as a gold digger. On the other hand, I have a number of resources and need to learn how to delegate tasks instead of taking on everything like I don't need a break. The unfortunate thing is we as women tend to break before we get a chance to take a break.

So while I laid in bed for about four days, continuously trying to leave the house and continuously returning back home feeling weak and defeated, I finally came to the conclusion that I just needed to take a break...from everything. God has a way of reminding us that He is and always will be in control. Regardless of how much you try to push and force things, He will stop you when He feels you need to stop. And so I needed to stop. Take a break. Slow down. Breathe. Pause. Be present.

I had a couple conversations with some close friends and God continued to be the center of the conversation. I was also reminded that I can't be everything to everybody every time. People will just have to figure it out. I read my Bible app everyday and I started a devotional today. Each devotional can last anywhere from 3 days to 30 days, to an entire year. At the end of every devotional is a Bible scripture. Today's scripture was Psalms 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God." #confirmation

For anyone who is struggling, worrying, stressing, feeling overwhelmed or anxious, please be reminded of Psalms 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God." The interesting thing is, the phrase "The Art of Letting Go" is on my vision board and I walk past and read it everyday. What's even more interesting is the fact that I had a different meaning behind the phrase when I placed it on my vision board. When we are still and in complete understanding of who God is, we are developing the habit of letting go. It's never too late to develop a good habit, and it's never too late to let go and let God.